This is a little tougher, as it's very much on the abstract side. Sarcasm generally doesn't litter suicide notes, sincerity does (as well as self-loathing) This seems like it could be sarcastic, but it's not. No one is responsible for Kurt's suicide besides Kurt, and no one should feel responsible. He can'tĪgain, this is very direct, and means exactly what it seems. Or be like most celebrities, and be happy with the money, fame, drugs, and whores. He wishes he could be like most people, and be happy with their TV's and beer and strip clubs. Nirvana lyrics frequently had double meanings Married and buried? Maybe that's what comes to us all? Or maybe that's what makes you feel as one? Or perhaps both. The sun is the equivalent of being dead, and feel as one is being free.

He mentioned in his suicide note that he didn't have the right to write music if he no longer felt the passion anymore. So what else do you cretins want me to say? How about this! It means exactly what you all deep down know it means.

This line has nothing to do with being happy or whatever bullshit people are telling themselves. And other times, he was blatantly direct. Many times Kurt wrote in an abstract and intuitive way. Most get this, this is like, what else can I be? To put it in today's terms, should I be like Pearl Jam and just make forgettable records a decade after anyone cares about them anymore, or be like U2 and criss cross between techno and saving the world? It's position at the end of In Utero is no accident, it's Kurt's final message to the world Firstly, yes, this is akin to a suicide note. also i love the sample of Zapp’s Computer Love.Everyone comes so close to getting this song, but are off by just a bit. i don’t mean to make this complicated, it’s just so hard for me to get used to the fact that he means to stay. i am so deathly afraid of getting hurt, & im so deathly afraid of unintentionally hurting him. but for the meantime, i’m taking such incredibly small baby steps. if we keep taking this slow, & if he continues to be so incredibly patient with me, then this will be so good for us. but i do have bad habits, & im so used to my own ways, & being on my own, & being lied to, & being loved only conditionally, that it’s hard for me to open up. i’m not a cheater, i don’t have one night stands. so i turned off my phone so i can breathe, & i closed my eyes, & i realized the pain in these lyrics. i couldn’t say any thing more without feeling worse. but for whatever reason, i want to self sabotage so bad & call this quits before it gets gets any deeper. but he’s so good to me & im good to him, so there’s no real good solid reason to call this off. i’ve never had anything like this before, & im afraid to wind up getting hurt, or hurting myself. or when you know that their love for you won’t last. & it’s so hard to hear that someone misses you, or that they love you, when they could be totally lying. it’s so hard for me to trust someone with my heart. & i wanted to tell him that i miss him back, & that i’m also getting some days off from work soon, & that i hope that our days align so we can hang out ! but i couldn’t !!! all of a sudden, i couldn’t tap on my silly little keyboard & type silly little letters. he said in his msg that he’s going to get a day off, to see me. & i think the weirdest part was getting a msg from my crush earlier that day, & finally responding to it later into my night. Bad Habits by Usher | 9:30 PM | | i discovered this song by accident, i think either the night before, or the same night, & had it on repeat all day & night.

Nirvana im so lonely